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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: A collection of paper scraps Tue Nov 25, 2014 12:49 am | |
| FIRST WEEK
my first week has been depressing and fun i got upset over talking about my cousins dying
i was talking to ross and i got upset over stuff talking about family and before the war ended up talking about my uncle and my cousins and got really like depressed over it i wanted to cry and then a person talked to me i want to work at that cafe but the fucking place is closed i mean how hard is it to open a door and serve people
why wont you just employ people to work there
besides people think im a girl and im used to that or i thought i would be because of school
but people keep thinking im a girl
it took a person really long to figure it out that im not
i don't know why people think why do i look so girly
i think it has something to do with genetics what am i supposed to do like i dont have girl parts its annoying but theres nothing i can do about it im going to maybe talk to ross when he wakes up or i could wake him up now and talk to him i dont know maybe if i join the mpf i can not be bothered by it since im sure they dont know whos male
i dont think ross likes them at least thats what i feel
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Tue Nov 25, 2014 11:36 pm | |
| i talked to ross about wanting to join the mpf and he said he wouldnt want me to i figured he would but it was worth a try i wonder when he might change his mind
so i got into a fight with a german guy he blocked us in the room that me and ross were in so i beat him up pretty well but he tried to make me feel bad like i know he was in the wrong i would have stabbed him with my pen he swore at me like 5 times before the fight
ross spent like 20 minutes telling me we are friends like best friends i dont know why he was nervous it was nice to hear him say it though just good to hear a friend valuing a friendship everyone is friends with me except that german the people i dont know but i cant help that
i only get talked to by guys and not girls ross thinks its because i look girly ross said that maybe manly girls are talking to me but i dont think that is right because i havent seen any of them with bits
except the one that i drew with ross
unless theres bearded women i dont know about
beards are gross why do people even grow them but im thinking that i could be a manly girl but then i dont have the girly bits maybe they dont have girly bits either but that means that theres manly girls which have the bits that girls dont ill think about it later maybe or talk to ross | |
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Wed Nov 26, 2014 3:02 pm | |
| dear, ross
to, ross ross
sorry im just really not sure how to deal cope deal with this so uh im sorry for being an asshole give me time i will think about it sorry
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
today has been pretty crap ross told me that he likes boys like girls and i dont know what to think about it
but i think i might be a girl i look like a guy and grow gross facial hair maybe i am a manly girl after all i feel like one on the inside i think maybe thats why people think i am
before that i had a problem at rations the officer or whatever thought i had a fake id
i wanted to punch him in the face stupid son of a bitch calling me a girl but it even says im a guy on my cid card i ended up yelling at somebody there but i wasnt told off as badly as i thought
i dont know what to do with this stuff ross i think likes me like a girl and i dont know what to say about it hes a good friend so i might say no he said it will make things weird so ill tell him when i finish writing this
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Thu Nov 27, 2014 2:32 pm | |
| so its been interesting today i got into a fight with someone they kept harassing me calling me a lass and a girl
and being an asshole
so i punched him in the face he really pissed me off frustrated me but i think it is fine now he hasnt annoyed me since
i saw that girl who i showed where ross and i slept im thinking she might like-like me because she kept talking to me unless shes bisexual too and thinks im a girl i dont think i could take something like that
my disgusting beard has been growing maybe in like a month it will be good so people dont think im a girl its the most annoying thing ever
ive drawn two pictures of the nexus one of ross when he was thinking and one of ross and that woman maybe i should ask for a different coloured pen or i could join the cwu and get all the pens haha
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
ive thought about what ross said and i think im not sexual i dont feel like anyone is special and i dont like-like anyone
i suppose this is what is expected
i spent my life looking at books
and nude models so it does nothing
i think i shouldnt be bothered by it if i like-like someone then i do if i not then i wont worry about it
the day before some guy in a fancy suit went to talk to me and ross but the nazi showed up called him a neon-nazi cunt i dont know why colour is important
he could be a polka dotted nazi
and i would still hate him and he swore at him seems really odd but i havent seen the nazi since good riddance if you ask me
the guy next to me is singing
he must be a lunatic i should probably move well before i get associated with him | |
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Fri Nov 28, 2014 6:21 am | |
| an officer with a damaged mask fell over and it was the same one from rations who said i had a fake cid the bastard so i laughed at him being injured when he swung at me i ducked and countered but another unit told me to stop
i decided to do something to kill time so i asked an officer for work and cleaned a store which recently opened i didnt want a reward for doing it i enjoyed being able to help
that girl was called samantha she like-likes me because i draw and some other things which i forgot she didnt know why i dont like-like her i tried to explain using colours but i think it didnt work
maybe shes not smart enough
i know how ross feels now but she went silent for a while and got upset when i tried drew her i offered to hold her hand but she ran off and refused my drawing
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
i ended up fighting wayne i was doing good until alex came in
that dickhead grabbed me and let wayne punch me it reminded me of losing in boxing i tried to stab him with my pen but i was stopped once more by alex i was struck in the throat by wayne i lost after that and alex dragged me to his house
when i got out i punched a lot of walls my knuckles have scabs on them now
and bleed when i pick them but before i wrote this wayne held a knife to my throat
and i felt i was going to die i was expecting to die right there but he left me offering a truce
i couldnt respond i was too scared sam and him can like-like eachother forever
i wonder why i dont like-like anyone i think im looking for somebody who is the opposite and contrasts to me if im black they must be white or the other way around theres a lot of colours in the world i dont have a good chance finding mine | |
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Sat Nov 29, 2014 3:08 am | |
| ross finally met samantha and it was ok but we were talking about private stuff so i told her to go away for a bit i think ill listen to ross and his advise but i dont know if its supposed to take this long sam and ross are both romantic people but not me i dont know why it is maybe its just how it is
i didnt see wayne at all today im not relieves it makes me uncomfortable i dont know if hes going to stab me or try to kill me when i dont expect it i cant help but feel really scared and if alex is his friend i doubt i could report him without being killed immediately afterwards
there was a woman with red hair on the bench i think she was posing for him because she didnt move
and then rations were announced i went to talk to her afterwards and she was rude
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
i need to work on trying to calm my anger i wont be able to make a life if i lose it my encounter with wayne taught me that much i will try and apply for the cwu when i get a chance but that means trying to get a form and there no fucking chance of that
its so fucking annoying its a piece of paper which has words on it i could fucking make one maybe i will send in a letter of my own and then hope for the best im sure i could try and guess what it would look like
if it wasnt for ross i would join the mpf and so i wouldnt have to worry about romantic stuff but i think sam needs me to keep her company i dont know what ross would do without me | |
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Sat Nov 29, 2014 4:44 am | |
| (OOC: This form is written on a torn scrap of paper and written in pencil) CWU APPLICATION `.'
NAME: KIM ROSSDALE CID NUMBER: 18,905 i would want to join the cwu bec i have sold food that i cooked my name is kim rossdale and i want to join the cwu my name is kim rossdale and i am a man and i want to join the cwu i like to draw pictures and i like working i enjoy the food from our rations and i think that i would be really good at being a cwu i remember when i was working in city 8 and i sold noodles to japanese people who lived there it was really fun but i didnt know any japanese so my friend koji taught me some common phrases i would really like to be given a chance at working in the cwu i cleaned one of the shops which opened up recently and i did it because i wanted to work so i would like a chance to keep working again
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Mon Dec 01, 2014 1:08 pm | |
| well i havent written anything in a long time so i think i should write something i havent had much time to write i got into the cwu and its been good and i made a few more friends
ive been drawing a lot more and giving them away the divisional i spoke to about hormones is nice they said they have my drawing framed in their office i felt really good about hearing that
that angry redhaired bitch keeps sitting near the park and i tried to talk to her a few times she ends up making me want to punch her fucking face in i guess some people you just cant talk to i dont know how somebody can be so rude
i saw a tall person yesterday and i ran from them i thought they were wayne and so i hid but it was someone else
i got into a fight with an officer he said all scots were hot blooded
fuck him i should have grabbed his gun but i got spotted by a divisional i was brought into detainment and given a pen to better my handwriting
i think it was worse than torture i never been interested in cursive writing its stupid and that pen was stupid as well
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
my new friends are interesting as well scar can talk to the dead so i will ask if she can talk to my cousins because i want to tell them how im going she was also talking about joining the mpf maybe ill be able to talk to her when she does it would be good to see how it is by asking a friend
gwen really likes hugging people and she hugged me
i think she doesnt like-like me but she might when i talked to ross about it he said it was a friend-type of hug so i thought she was really romantic this romance thing is really hard complicated
i met somebody called erik whos friends with wayne but he doesnt know where wayne has gone either they used to be roommates or something but wayne changed a lot apparently maybe they are enemies now
i hope thats the case ill talk to them more when i can
im hoping the news of my fight doesnt get told to my boss i dont want to lose my job at the shope i really didnt want to mess it up this badly but that stupid officer insulted my home
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Wed Dec 03, 2014 2:27 pm | |
| SECOND WEEK
ive been feeling quite heavy as of late gwen is able to do what she wants without being told whenever i hug someone im awkward about it but she hugs everyone she sees and its amazing maybe when i get my medication i can be like her
that stupid officer came to me when i was sitting down he tried to apologise but i got up and left him then another officer came over and talked to me so they unlocked the shop and i did some work there but i cleaned the shop before i started selling stuff shortly after the officer came back and he was being a dickhead unreasonable trying to say i was selling a yellow level contraband because i sold three beers to two other officers then he checked the back room taking the beers
what an asshole god i hate him and his stupid face
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
ross got into a fight for some stupid reason i dont know why hed fight someone he seems calm but then again i laugh and get into a lot of fights maybe hell tell me who did it and then i can fight them instead
alex also said that he saved rosses life if that was true he would have shot that guy instead of letting them get away it was probably alex who attacked him since ross said they came from behind
i also got locked in the slums area and met a woman who stank of shit and also alex but i didnt want to follow him hed probably shoot me since hes a friend of waynes so i followed the stinky woman to the city her name was mercury or something i wish my parents gave me a cool name scar and mercury have cool names its unfair
im not sure if i want to still join the mpf but i think i should ill ask scar about it because if she thinks its easy then ill join | |
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Thu Dec 04, 2014 8:45 am | |
| sam said she was nearly raped and shot twice she wanted to get revenge on the person but if wayne has a knife and scares the shit out of me i dont like thinking about iif wayne had a gun and how he would act if i met him in a dark alley i told her life was precious and she shouldnt waste hers or the people who died trying to save her but she didnt listen
i tried everything i could think of i threatened to rape her i tried to convince her with words i held her down i slapped her but nothing worked
i feel like shit but i can say i tried to stop her maybe slapping her in the face wasnt a good choice but i didnt know what to do so i panicked i know hitting her was a dumb thing to do but it was the only thing i could think of sam im sorry and i hope you make it back alive because if you dont i can never apologise i quit my job i get into fights too much im not worthy of the cwu armband
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
that stupid officer with the ugly face wont stop annoying me i tried to tell him that i dont like him i tried to run away from him but he just wont fucking leave me alone why are people so stupid now i know why that redhaired bitch is a bitch if i wanted to talk i would talk but now that i took his stunstick and threw it away he said i was going to be charged with attempted policide i dont event know what that is but it doesnt sound good i wonder if ill be able to see ross or sam from here on out im starting to hate it in city 45 i wish i was back in city 18 with my uncle | |
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Acidic_TACO Founder
Posts : 229 Join date : 2014-11-07 Age : 28 Location : The box marked broken toys
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Fri Dec 05, 2014 3:55 pm | |
| <::Photocopies of these papers have been archived into the SeC's personal files and may be distribute the above information to any unit he sees fit::> [OOC] Took pictures of everything above and saved it | |
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Sat Dec 06, 2014 3:09 am | |
| (This entry seems to have worse handwriting than the others)
well today was really eventful but it was for the better
fredrick someone who i had talked ended up being that stupid officer and wanted me to strip infront of him he attacked me when i tried to leave so i couldnt think of anything i punched his face
that was a painful mistake
i think i broke a knuckle or something and so i stabbed him with my pencil and i didnt know what to do but i took his shockstick from him and beat him to the ground with it and then told him to strip instead and put on his uniform
pretending to be a mpf officer was fun i sat next to someone and talked but they didnt say anything so i left
i guess people dont like talking to officers well as much as i like to anyway and when i walked up to a group of people i asked them to isolate like other officers did to me and i got attitude from alex and when fredrick approached i panicked and said he was malignant
i dont even know what that means i got into a fight because of it but i managed to escape luckily
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
but when i ran back to the nexus i got found out because fredrick told one of the officers what happened and i got put in detainment i was really scared it felt like i was there forever
i told ross all about it and that i like-like him =) i felt really happy and i put my head on his shoulder it was really nice for once it seems im genuinely happy so this is what its like to have a special someone in your life ill put off joining the mpf now i dont want this feeling to end
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also travis that neon-nazi fuck cunt person got beaten up by an officer i may have watched more than i should it felt good watching him get his ass beat and since then hes been speaking like a retard i definitely think its funnier than it is especially after i told him to watch his back thats what he gets for calling me a cunt | |
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_Uno Legend
Posts : 142 Join date : 2014-11-23
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Mon Dec 08, 2014 12:45 am | |
| (This entry seems to have worse handwriting than the others)
been a while since i last wrote anything i was having trouble getting paper but a lot has happened where to begin
i had been working a lot recently and earned something like 36 loyalty points which was quite good because it meant i could see the administrator
sam eva and i went into the slums and hunted down a rapist i threw my flashlight like 50 meters and i hit her haha =) i couldnt believe my luck
but that was before i found a knife and wayne was saying stuff and pissed me off so i stabbed him and if it wasnt for sam pushing me off i think i would have killed him being pushed away by sam was good because it gave me time to realise what i did i know i crossed a line i shouldnt have wayne was carried away i stayed behind paralyzed but i knew what was going to happen and i walked to the nexus with the knife i stabbed him with i felt really bad about it
unless your a hungarian bitch i dont think i cried so much in my life
speaking of redheads there was one outside of the ration place and she wasnt eating her rations so i tried to help but i got annoyed with her and threw my rations at her instead
(On the back of the paper there is more writing)
when i came out of detainment for stabbing wayne i just thought i was going to be killed so i began to push ross away i didnt want him getting hurt and i kept hitting him to get him to leave me alone but he wouldnt leave and then ran off to talk to wayne turns out wayne is fine with me so long as i dont piss him or his friends off
so ive been making amends and started talking to travis he seems to be quite nice because the last time i saw him he called me a cunt and was beaten by an officer i feel bad for laughing about it now
ill need to make peace with alex but i dont think ive done anything too bad except attack his door and mention that stuff about replacing his kid
actually that was pretty bad i should apologise to him when i get the chance
and i guess later id have to apologise to sam and then wayne what i did was fucking stupid i wiah i wasnt so angry
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Lamar The Crocodile Newbie
Posts : 7 Join date : 2014-12-03
| Subject: Re: A collection of paper scraps Mon Dec 08, 2014 10:04 pm | |
| ** The drawing below appears to be an unfinished skeleton for drawing a human individual, but below lies a note, crumpled with it in a different handwriting ** The note reads: "I have completely forgotten that I still carry this drawing, though it may be unfinished. It's the work of Kim. I saw what happened to them on the big screen in the plaza. Though I vilified and scorned Kim around the time, I couldn't help but to feel broken deep down inside of me. Before Kim's execution, Ross informed me that Kim is looking into forgiveness and is sorry for what he's done. I was fine, however I wanted nothing to do with him at all regardless of what he says. He is indeed a toxic individual, but also... broken. Even the day before, when I stepped out of the nexus and in the ration line, I saw hints of remorse in his face, which has troubled me for a while. Now that I have witnessed his death, sometimes I just wish I didn't hold a grudge for long. As of Gautama Buddha said "Holding a grudge is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die." My message to Kim is this: I'm sorry for everything. I hoped to be a better person than you'd think I was. I will send my condolences to your partner, Ross.
♫ Shine on you crazy diamond ♫
-Wayne P.S. I'm bearing this drawing from this day to the grave." | |
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